Yesterday I had an interesting experience during my Jewel Tree Meditation. In the section “the spirit of enlightenment with wisdom, love and compassion” I came to the third level of wisdom which is meditation. There, using the technique called the Diamond Drill, I pursued the question “Who am I?” Normally I defer to Eckhart Tolle’s answer which is “I am the space or the field in which form appears” but sometimes I answer with Thou Art That or the ground of being or the All That Is.
But yesterday my answer was “I am”. Of course this made me think of the Biblical “I am that I am.” As sometimes happens in my meditation, I then stopped my process and simply listened to what seemed to be a “teaching” from elsewhere.
What I think I heard was this: Everything in the world is expressing “I am”—from the peepers to the small waves on the lake, from the trees to the crows cawing in the morning, from the bees boring holes in the deck to the heron standing in the lake. All consciousness is “I am” expressing and experiencing its own uniqueness.
We humans express “I am” by way of involution and evolution through our chakra system. The life force or spirit enters the seventh chakra and travels down to the first charka where we begin the process of returning to the seventh. In the first chakra we become human beings living on earth. This is our grounding. In the second chakra we become aware of our sense mechanisms and the data received to which we react with feelings. Finally in the third chakra we get a sense of ourselves as this earthly being with a body, thoughts, feelings and emotions. This becomes our ego or personality. Probably as a society this is the average stage of our evolution.
Coming soon is a shift in consciousness which will propel us into our fourth or heart chakra. This is where I believe I was during the meditation when I heard all consciousness voice its unique expression of “I am”. This is where we relate to all the other forms on earth. It’s here in this chakra that love and compassion emerge. This is where we “know” that we are all one.
When the energy moves into the fifth or throat chakra we begin our unique expression. Just as the peepers in the spring call out “I am” to find their mates, we humans use our voice. This is the chakra of imagination and visioning. Here I envision myself healthy and happy. I am now ready to inhabit my body and express my I amness. I believe the meaning and purpose of life is to find this unique expression, that which makes us joyful to be alive, and then to use it to assist all others in expressing theirs.
As I sat in meditation I had the sense that in the sixth chakra we often get lost. We have a choice to take the fork which leads to thought or the one to intuition. Happiness, as we all know, is not predicated on exterior events. When I’m lost in thought I think I can only be happy and healthy when I’m living in St John on a sailboat as I sip mango juice. This is my attempt to control the universe, to put all my ducks in a preconceived row. Instead, the intuitive path reminds me that I choose happiness and that whatever event comes into view is the perfect one. I can be just as happy mowing grass as I can lounging on a boat in Cruz Bay. As both Krishnamurti and Tolle remind us, thought is a tool we use when dealing with life situations. Life, however, is Now. This moment, this Now, I choose to be happy and the universe provides opportunities.
And finally we arrive back at the seventh chakra, our spiritual connection. No matter whether our consciousness is in our head or our toe we are always connected. Here on earth we have the opportunity to experience consciousness, ourselves, in a bodily form with senses. We came here to enjoy the experience.
After the meditation I listened throughout the day. As I heard the birds I imagined them singing “I am”. When the storm rolled in across the lake I imagined the waves slapping the shore with “I am”. In an abstract way I know we are all one, but after the meditation I had a greater sense of the many forms of the life force of which I am one, unique but connected.